Where have I been lately? I've been around... with a bad attitude and all... I needed a little heart check here lately! I'll admit it, my heart needs so much work... but, OH, I am so grateful that I serve a God who forgives me over and over for my messiness... I'm a work in progress! I'll say it again - I'm a work in progress! And if you came in contact with me this week... you probably thought that yourself! :) It's ok, I can take it!
I'm not a person that is naturally filled with joy, I never have been. I wish I could say that I jump out of bed each morning ready to face a new day, but that's just not the case. However, I am thankful for this... it reminds me usually minute-by-minute how much I DESPERATELY need my Jesus! How thankful I am for a Savior that sought me out!
What's on my mind? I'm sitting in my comfortable little world having a little pity party... thinking about this and that - I'm cold, too cheap to turn on the furnace... you know, stuff like that.
BUT... I can't help but think of all the children around the world that are cold EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. The same children that go to bed without a hug or kiss from their momma, the children that are putting their siblings to bed, the children that are raising their younger siblings, the children that lie awake hungry, not knowing where their next meal will come from, the children that have scars that run deeper than I could ever imagine. The children that have never known the loving heart of a mother. The children that have never known the protective heart of a father. And how can we possibly expect them to understand the love of Jesus when they have no earthly father to care for them?
What are we waiting for? Children are dying every day as I sit in my comfy little world and think about ridiculous little things!
Jesus - thank your for saving me! Thank you for rescuing me! Teach me to be more like you each and every day! Change my heart Father... help me to put aside my selfish desires to put YOU first in my life. Help me to put the needs of others before my own, to lay down my life daily!
PS - for a GREAT adoption post, check out my friend Amy's post here. I was 19 when I was adopted.. how old were you?